Whew! We made it through another week and it was a tough one. Emotions still running high, my daughter is scared, frustrated and extremely bored. We've had1 more scare which sent us to the hospital but little Camden is hanging tough. Heartbeat is still strong and even though he has very little room to move around he still manages to punch and kick throughout the day to let us know he's ok.
We still have a long road ahead of us but we continue to pray and for the most part we remain strong although there are moments when both my daughter and I lose it. The good thing so far is that it doesn't happen at the same time. In fact I reserve my moments of "losing it" when I'm alone.
I am frustrated and I get angry sometimes too. I'm a fixer ask anyone who knows me well. Come to me with a problem and I am always trying to come up with a solution. This situation is so far out of my control it's driving me nuts. I lie awake the other night thinking about all the ways I would go about fixing this. With all the advances in medicine why hasn't someone come up with a way to seal the sac back up? After doing my internet research on the situation it seems that premature membrane rupture is quite common. So why hasn't some smart scientist come up with a medical version of fix a flat? Seriously there has to be a way to pinpoint the area that has been compromised and glue it back together right? Seems simple to me but what do I know? I'm just a mother who is scared and watching her baby girl experience every emotion you could image on a daily basis.
So we've made it two weeks and we have three more to go. We have a pretty extensive prayer chain going and I thank everyone who is sending those prayers up because we certainly feel the blessings coming down. Every day that we get closer to July 25th is a day closer to us making it through this crisis.
