Time is something that we all take for granted. We
never know how much time we have and yet we are always putting things off until
later. Saying I’ll get around to it or I’ll deal with it later.
In my lifetime there have been so many inventions and
gadgets that are supposed to save us time but honestly, I think I have less
time now than I did before. Recently while visiting my cousin we
talked about how the invention of the cell phone has its benefits for sure but
also has its pitfalls. She commented on how often she has noticed that
when people are together in social settings they aren’t really spending time
together, everyone is glued to their phone. I admitted that I too am
guilty of always being on my phone.
I think it’s a natural thing for you to become more aware of
time as you get older. As your children grow up and go out on their own
you might start to wonder where the time went. In some cases, you might
look back and wish you had done things differently or spent more time
when you had the chance. When a loved one passes away it’s normal to
think about all the things we wished we had done or said to them before they
left us. If you’re reading this, it’s a good chance you’ve been following
my journey with my husband. This journey has really taught me the value
of time. You might be thinking I’m referencing the time we were able to
spend together over the past two years, and yes, I do value that time but I’m
actually beginning to focus more on the time we’re spending apart right
now. After many months of literally crying every day and complaining to
everyone about it a switch finally flipped in my head one day and I realized
that this time right now, with us being apart is very valuable time.
I wasn’t quite sure how to express it until today when I received an email from
one of my daily devotionals. It was titled the work you can
do while you wait. The premise for this devotional came from Psalm 27:14
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the
Lord. It talked about how our wait is never wasted. It
mentions a few well-known characters from the Bible and reviews how they worked
while they waited for promised blessings. I read and reread the entire
email multiple times and each time I read I became aware of another reason why
I’m currently in a waiting pattern.
There were and still are so many things that I needed to
accomplish. Having spent most of the
past two years in the Dominican Republic there were many things back here in
Pennsylvania that were neglected. I’ve
had time to take care of some of those things.
I’ve been able to focus on preparing my house and myself for
my husband’s arrival. There was work
that I needed to complete before his arrival and I needed to be able to provide
more support to my mom as she continues to grow and expand on her vision for her business. Also my daughter needed me during the end of her high-risk
pregnancy. My grand babies need more MiMi time. As I took a few steps back to
see things from a wider angle it became very clear to me that there was a
reason for this time. Now that I’ve
realized this the days are much easier to get through without my husband here
with me. Trust me I still miss him dearly,
but I know that there’s purpose and I need to remain patient.
This time apart has brought my husband and I closer
together. We talk more, and the
conversations are deeper. More than just
how are you doing, what did you do today etc.
It’s amazing to me how he can just look at me and see my mood, happy,
sad, tired or whatever. He can see my
sadness when those who I interact with everyday don’t seem to notice. It’s easy to begin to overlook things or take
things or someone for granted when they’re always there with you. Once they’re gone that’s when you start to
realize their absence and all the things they were doing to enhance your
life.
I’m taking this opportunity to slow down a bit and pay
attention to all that is happening around me, trying to make the best use of
this time. Of course, I have no idea
when this time alone will end or my time in general so I’m trying to make the
very best of it. I encourage you all to
take some time to evaluate exactly how you are spending your time. Is it worth it? Only you can answer that. Thanks for reading and I will keep everyone
posted on our Visa journey.
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